The family that travels together stays together.

The life in me, is because of us.

It's been 10 years I left home, to do my engineering in 2008, since then things have changed.

I left home, to follow a dream, education and a job, money and success, like every other kid, but always had a flake of hope that, at the end of the quest we will be together again and no matter what I do or how I do, all roads lead back home and now, that dream seems fading away, as I can’t be with the only people who matter the most for me because I need to earn for them, and home town does not support my skill set. 

My parent doesn’t want to leave the town and move with me, because this place is freaking urban and they don't have their social comfort and I understand that too.

Me 30, a semi successful career, decent salary, do enjoy whatever hobbies I have,
parents have started to get worried about me and my sister to get married now and have my own family. But, do I get married, just to repeat the same cycle all over again.

I understand the fact that we all need a partner for life,
I do feel the need too, at times,
and at others it’s because I am horny.
The thing that bothers me most is, what do I get out of the whole thing,

Finding love or a correct partner for life, feels like the most troubling thing I had to go in these three decades, and I am sure it is for everyone, but this stage is not what I was looking for, the boy that left home still wants to go back.

Things have changed, I have grownup, and so have them. I have a strong feeling, that we don't know each other anymore, we didn't grow old, only at two different places on the map & clock, but also on emotions, apologies I lack a measurement unit or a device for emotions.

At the end of the year 2017, my family was with me, and apparently when I say home, it’s not about the geographical location, it is about being with my old man and lady, and obviously the little sister.

I was happy, and not in persecute of it, the stage.

It has been a journey, and I still hope for the destination I left for.

Regards, J