It's kinda funny how life can change, Can flip 180 in a matter of days ..

hi everyone .. gosh i took along leave ... didn't i..
aahh,, all that shifting to a new place consumed me, life, rejection, love, it all consumed me..

you know, in my mind m a very flexible person, but the lessons m going through is testing me for really a big deal now. The company i was proud of has kept me on hold, wants me to wait, my skills of no use cause no openings for it, my communication.. like i have british accent, i used to like it and the IBM rejected me because of it, they need someone neutral.
the love i was proud of, trust me i have just that with me.. seems going away..
what will you do if u don't have a social existence, and your partner will never admit to any one that she is yours ??

awwhh.. i had every thing figured out and now m fighting to reconstruct a figure..

"Late at night I'm still wide awake 

And this is one more than I can take 

I thought my heart could never break 

Now I know that one big mistake "

i will try and keep it less tragic next time..

jey .. i dont wanna be hopeless anymore !!

Every day is a journey, and the journey itself is home :)

Dear blogg, 

m shifting, "Again"... m shifting to Bangalore...

it is enough waiting for LNT info tech to call me up, i guess i should move on ..

and that to now

i will be leaving for Bangalore, tomorrow .. in search of my self.

it will be a completely new experience, i have almost no one their, never been to the place and it is one of the biggest metro's of the country..

big big place in every terms.

"Scared" !!

yes... a bit scared of this new now journey

The road of life twists and turns and no two directions are ever the same. Yet our lessons come from the journey, not the destination. 

i have been successful in mine till now, fingers crossed for next.

it is a three days by train route, so will get back to all my dearest visitors in three days, love you..

i don't know ware m going, but i like the direction !!

hopeless, jey 

allot inside, but why cant i write ??

Dear blogg...
devastated would be the correct state fo me now... family, job, love every thing that matters to me seems going away, seems mad on me and feels like i may not ever fix this up ...
allot inside but why cant i write :(

hopeless jey !!

Treat yourself right.

It's time to lavish yourself with the attention you deserve.
hopeless,jey 

we all know how those joint families end...

Dear blogg..
i grew up with a family of loved once, my grand father, grand mother, my father with his two brothers makes a terrific trio.. all cousins and owns together, my generation makes a total of four sisters and four brothers.

India, popular for its family bonding and love, does have a very darker side, ware these joint families end pathetic, i don't say each one is doomed to have the same fate but i guess all of them, i came across, ware unlucky !!

Ours Mine is about to broke too, my uncle wants to sell the family land ware i was born and grew up, to raise sum funds to be invested for his business. I got a new new angle to look at my home now, as just a peace of land, ha ha..
i guess, i am holding stupid sentimental values in 21st century...

later this week, while watching vampire diaries, ( for the fourth time now, all the episodes off all the three seasons, m obsessed, and ridiculesly bored ) so got inspired about that family journal and stuff, and thought if any one of my ancestors left any thing even close to that for me and the descendants coming after ...
i found that, my grand father from my mothers side was the last one who used to do so.. interesting cause i too am gonna rite..
and it would be even more if i could get few facts about one of the persons life history written by him self, who used to care too much for me, soon will be getting those journals.

miss you nana ji
hopeless,jey  (since every thing is being cut of these days, so is my name, which my grand paa gave me)

Sri jayant.

ClOwN

whole world calls me a clown

half of it is true, but half is false too

remove your glasses, and look again

world has changed, not me, the face is same old

I laughed at myself to make other laugh

I became a object/game in the fair

come in the fair

neither  Hindu nor Muslim not a Christian, 

neither Oriental nor Occidental

to laugh and make people laugh is my religion

push and pull, crowd and flow

so many people, yet my heart is alone

yet my heart is alone

if you feel sorry, just call out to me

but hey, don't fall for me

hopeless, jey