My inner stillness..

hi friends..

Have you ever felt like, some of the issues confronting you now are in making peace with the past and coming to terms with any karmic debts you may have accrued in this life.
I am feeling..
Some suggest a backward walk or a review of each day and then letting go of any negative--perhaps, if needed, a correction in thinking may be all that is necessary. Of course, nature might appreciate a backward look more often.
Sometimes an oil change, a toss of a piece of paper, an aluminum can or a gum wrapper can all have a ripple effect on our lives--for a long time in the future--recycle.
Should i look into a more natural way to care for my garden or to get rid of the bugs in my home. Unconventional approaches to philosophy, religion, law and politics come to play, but to relationships ?

help me out with the answer.. coz i cant even get my question ..

Regards..
hopeless, jey...

theory of everything.......!!

hello hello friends....

Worlds most eminent scientist alive Sir Stephen Hawking says..
 " A set of equations that described every particle and force in the entire universe will be the exact definition of god, It would be the ultimate triumph of human reason – for then we should know the mind of God"
he dose not really seems to be a guy who is in god too much, one of her thoughts say  'There is no heaven; it's a fairy story' .


but can their be a theory of everything ? A thought, an equation, a perception or something which could define everything..
like god does, the region for everything, ....


from the beaning of universe by the big-bang, or the end of dinosaurs, or the classical questions of life after death, why are we hear.. woohoo
questions, question.... and m asking for just one solution.. the solution which could answer everything, which could simplify every complication...


if the answer is no....!!
then it will force me to think again about my trust on god..!!
and if it is yes....!!
what about the answer of a question, Sir Stephen Hawking gave...
"Why are we here?"
He says that, tiny quantum fluctuations in the very early universe became the seeds from which galaxies, stars, and ultimately human life emerged. "Science predicts that many different kinds of universe will be spontaneously created out of nothing. It is a matter of chance which we are in,"


m not revoking the old since v/s god war.. but just a point.. a question ..
if their is a god who is the creator, developer and destroyer of everything, 
is he also the theory of everything... !!


think if my question is worth, else let it be.. cause i have many more..
will be back soon..
Regards..
Hopeless, jey ;)

Being unconditional...!

hi all bloggers..

what's up.. ohk i know no one is gonna reply yet had to ask..
have to share this experience of waiting without knowing the outcome.. and not known even the state of what you are waiting for..
want me to be clear ??
it's her birthday today, she is a bit angry and i admit that the mistake was mine tried alot but the cell was out of network at midnight, soo sent a text and no reply, again a text, "called her to meet" and no reply waiting for reply since last three and a half hour cant wait any more, finally one more text "i will wait for you in the audi" and guess what.....
............
no reply ..!!
rit now m in the audi,now it is 2:10pm its been 1 hour approximately and no trace of her.. but i know she will come..
what do you guys think .. ?
I wished that our Hi's could be sweetest and good bye's the most difficult, but she was the most beautiful Hi and the most Unexpected good-bye, and m still trying it to cancel it out... and replay my past days over again.
hey.. if i will keep writing i would make a book untill the college hours end so i will navigate to the other browser tab for a while..

2:28.. still no show .. ohk.. i will wait..  !!
hey all the kids never waist time if u will time will waist you, " m doing my image processing convolution theorem side by side" so respect time and it will respect you..
Standing is a big problem.. but ware to sit, audi is a mess today...

well well, 2:53pm she did not came yet... i know one thing "A Hope never dies" and one more thing
"F(f (t) g(t)) = F(f (t))F(g(t))" is the convolution theorem ha ha.. :)
i have started to break down.. standing since last two hours, at lest a text pleeez... cant you hear me !!

3:20 pm two hours and ten minutes for the college to end and two hours and 21 minutes since i have been waiting ..
a sudden question strikes me that, does she know that m waiting... but i texted her, should i again, m i thinking too much, she must be knowing that m waiting, seriously, my mind is playing tricks on me lately ...

you know the college's furniture work is going on in hear and that drill's noise is pissing me off,WTF
wait some one is on the stairs....


:(  naa.. some one else !!

4:05 Pm i texted again few minute before " It's been two hours waiting ..." and no reply yet ....
till now you guys must have started thinking that i am an emotional fool.. haven't you ...
see what can be the worst, she will not come ? ooh.. that really will be the worst....
what if she is not carrying her phone with her,... we should be positive with our attitude... as my friend nikhil said in his blog....it brings happiness.. m still waiting for mine ..

4:30 guys one more hour for college to be closed, i can see people passing by on the way from the audi's door they give me a look, wave at me and me too and continue, with their journey..    but ware did i got stuck
standing still since last three and a half hours now

4:48, i think hope may not die, but it can be killed... mine is being... nikhil.. would u still stick to the theory of happy life with positive attitude.... i

5:00pm everyone is leaving the college is about to be closed, i should try to call, " the person you are trying is not responding at the movement- the IVR replied,she did not pick i should leave...

i came out of the audi all most every one is gone, but its only five yaar, should i wait 30 more minutes... yes i will... i went back to the audi....

5:30...  what should i do now.. she did not came

what to do with these flowers, what to do of these chocolates and this bloody card........
the pain is not that i waited for so long, the pain is she dose not care at all...

but why did not ??

will let u know when i will come to..
till then regards
hopeless, jey......




Declearation: above story is a work of fiction, it does not have any relation with reality.... ;)

Generation or degeneration..... next ...!!

hey  hiii...
its me again
i think i need a psychiatrist guys, coz m just 22 and i am feeling like 52... why.. let me explain..
in my views i used to think that m too up-to-date with the recent trends, gadgets, technology, philosophy and all the stuff really kool but...
certainly a kid from first or second year comes and shakes my all assumptions and says on my face... "Hello sir, if u think u r on the rocks, then let me tell you u r not" and i just kept looking at her just my eyes broad open and mouth shut.

well well, m i out dated ?
or are they running a head time ?
and not only all this geeky stuff, they might not know who is the home minister of  India, but they for sure know what "live-in" means and what is being gay...

now i don't find it wrong but a bit worried that once i used to think that eastern influence in our culture is good and it will make us broad, but now suddenly why do i find the sudden flaws in it !!
to be presize, i am afraid of the speed with which India's not so old and not too young population is reacting to the freedom of expressing and communication and understanding relationships ...
may be i am thinking too much but it is what i have experienced in my surrounding.

my brother is in 9th standard and i was just going through his playlist and i could find all the songs which ware unexpected.. and his browsers history url's.. woohoo.. dont ask me !!
I know coz i have been through that teen age, that it is normal to have certain how's and why's but the extent is defiantly increasing..

i don't want to be inflexible to the time, yet the past has a hold on me...
let's see what's in the future..
will be back again, till then
Regards
Hopeless, me .. :)) 

things to do before i die !!

hey all bloggers and my dearest golf bolls..
like any other teenager i used to make a list of things to do, coz their used to be things to confuse me, it really is equally true they are still with me, not the to-do list, the confusions..

i was into a movie 'Dasvidaniya' and thought that we really should concentrate on our priorities,the golf bolls...

what we really wish to do if we know we are about to die in a couple of years, or weeks, or may be days
hey hey..  m serious, it may sound a bit "kal ho na ho" types but really lets give it a try, what say ..!!

1. MY PARENTS : I really couldn't be a son they wished for, never, i just want to to make them feel at least for a second that they are proud to have me as their gene holder..
2.  SISTER : I am elder to my sis, she always says that m her best friend, she for sure is mine, but i haven't done any thing so special which could really make me, her best friend.
3. LOVE : I have been running away from this word since i was in 7th standard, thought lets archive the live's goals, will see to it then, but it is a dream of my inner most to propose my babu on Eiffel tower in an evening in pairs, and really make her feel like.. a princess like when we are side by side life goes on cloud twelve.... seems kind of filmy but its true, i have to do this. i luv you ...
4. CLOTHES : I really love wearing suits, it is a dream to have lots of them really lots of them.
5. AN OPEN AIR CAR & A HALEY DAVIDSON : m not a bike freak, yet since i saw it's documentry in discovery m big big a fan of these brothers, and an open air car with additional buffers and great music Enrique iglesias songs specially , the one like in ZNMD .
6. SISTER : I am elder to my sis, she always says that m her best friend, she for sure is mine, but i haven't done any thing so special which could really make me, her best friend.LOVE : I have been running away from this word since i was in 7th standard, thought lets archive the live's goals, will see to it then, but it is a dream of my inner most to propose my girl on Eiffel tower in an evening in pairs, and really make her feel like.. a princess like when we are side by side life goes on cloud twelve.... seems kind of filmy but its true, i have to do this.

7. SEX :  Oh come on, its practical and perfectly normal, i think, m really being truth full, like any other 22 years old virgin, if m about to die it would be a wish to be fulfilled.
how ? no clue.. but yes.. some how.!!

i guess m done, if could tick out all these seven before the last oxygen consumption, i mean breath...

see friends its true that we don't know when we are going to die, but we know that now we are alive..
so let's cut the crap and just do it..

will be back again with a new thought, in search of a new hope
till then regards..
hopeless, jey ;P

why is, anything divided by zero not-defined ..!!

Greetings and salutations.... everyone


i was just passing by an article on wiki..  one of the earliest recorded references to the mathematical impossibility of assigning a value to a / 0 is contained in George Berkeley's criticism of infinitesimal calculus in The Analyst; see Ghosts of departed quantities.. 


i consider my self the second Arayabhatta and the first thought that came to my subconscious that hey.. that should have been tha number it self ??


bec0z dividing by zero means, not dividing at all !!


but the new born aryabhatta lasted just two lines ahead the description said,  " what is the number of cookies that each person receives when 10 cookies are evenly distributed amongst 0 people? Certain words can be pinpointed in the question to highlight the problem. The problem with this question is the "when". There is no way to distribute 10 cookies amongst 0 people. In mathematical jargon, a set of 10 items cannot be partitioned into 0 subsets. So , at least in elementary arithmetic, is said to be either meaningless, or undefined. "

of course Mr George Berkeley's won the match ....


if m being toooo technical will tell you about an emotional dimension, inspired by my friend AB ( Abhinav )

Ab

i was down and out, and was saying atram-shatram Ab said ' hey why are u so disturbed only becoz not geting answers to ur questions' se bro just dont crave for the answer, coz some times their is no answer after all anything devided by zero is un-defined..!!


i not at all got the answers to my questions but.. i really got a life saving thought, that some times life gives us no reasons for every 'why' we put in front...  coz their is no resion !!

and even if their is, why to burn my blood in search of it..
and what finally i got was again a 'why'.. hell


either it be Ab or George Berkeley's concept of undefined, either it be 'a/0' or 'why/why'


some times their are things shouting at us " WE ARE NOT-DEFINED"..!!

regards, hopeless, jey !!

why do we feel helpless some times..!!

hi bloggers, and the non..
it isn't that that m an emotional person, and will be writing about life and similar heavy things, it's just the transition sometimes goes through our path and forces change willingly or un..

when we have questions and we don't get answers why does it irritates ??
when we want something or some one and can't get why does it becomes painful ??
when we want to stick to something  and cant why ??

i know it is... the "WANT" what makes us helpless some times ...
ohhk.. let me tell u one thing.. being good is not always enough, as i might sound depressive but i have failed many times in being upto the expectations of people around me.. even after being good at many other things.

and this want was a big cause which created misshapps.. ha ha
things around you always influence you, on everything you do and everything you want to and certainly when we act accordingly to the influence of the surrounding and if any thing goes not the way we want, we call it failure and make us helpless and restless....

but on the other hand if you don't let the surrounding influence you the surrounding keeps poking and hitting you with the best of the spells it can cast un till the wicket is finally gone..

i will suggest that the effect is mandatory so do not try to avoid it, jut sit back relax and enjoy the pain of being helpless cos the help is about to arrive any time and the same surrounding will introduce it to you.. :)

Just for the sake of start..!!

Hi everyone..
may be their is no everyone, but yet for the sake of saying, isnt't it..
doing things for just because they ware to be done is really boarin, it isnt that m the rit person to say on it and i dont do it my self but its all part of the game..

may be i sound confusing but m trying to make my pint clear that m just writing for the sake of START ...!!